The longer I live on this earth, the more this crazy world seems to make sense to me.
I know not everyone feels that way. Plenty of us see the horrors of the world and wonder why!? Why does all this crazy sh*t happen to good people? Why do leaders commit genocide, why are children enslaved, why are little girls sold as child brides and little boys made to work in mines or with heavy machinery? Why are entire populations oppressed or lack access to clean water or healthcare?
So many questions.
Yet, for me at least, the more I dig into God’s Word, the peace and clarity I have about it all.
I keep finding truths upon truths in that book.
To my non-Christian friends, some of you have said to me “I support what you believe” or “I don’t judge you for your beliefs.” That’s nice. But you don’t get what I’m saying right now, no offense. Some of you aren’t nice and roll your eyes at me. That’s okay. Listen, I’m not trying to convert you, and honestly, I’ve probably rolled my eyes at Christians just as much as you have.
But I’m telling you right now, this book is incredible if you really just actually read it.
See, I didn’t really read it before last year. So I didn’t know either.
I had memorized a few verses in Awana growing up, and of course heard the most popular passages in sermons and such, but I’d never really sat down and read the Bible with any sort of real comprehension or organic desire. I’d read the Old Testament for its stories, and I’d read the New Testament out of some feeling of obligation, but the words didn’t resonate with me like they do now that I’m really interested in hearing what God has to say and truly knowing Him better.
Now that I reading for comprehension, I’m blown away with both how practical and also profound it is. And also how poetic and beautiful.
Today, I was reflecting on a situation I was in this past week, where I was eating with a group of people, and in the midst of a rowdy conversation, I had a moment. Nothing really happened in that moment, except that I felt a shift in my perspective. I didn’t say anything to mark the moment. I didn’t really feel that I needed to.
My mind had flitted back to a passage we’ve all heard—A Time for Everything, Ecclesiastes 3. In that moment, I felt the truth of it. Read it again with me.
The passage is written by King Solomon, and his thoughts so clearly articulate my own. Isn’t it such joy in life to work and see the fruit of our labor? To eat and drink and be happy and do good to others? These things are a gift from God. But also, God has set eternity on the human heart. Aren’t we all searching for that enlightenment? Sending our energy out into the Universe and hoping to get something back?
I feel like my youth was characterized by upheaval and searching, trial and error, ignorance, naivety, risk, and feelings of being lost and hopeless. Overcoming the trials of my youth and growing from them with the Lord’s help, has resulted in my little ship coming out on the other side of the storm into calm waters—at least for the time being.
And in this calm little sea, I can look and see and agree that, yes, there is a time for everything under the sun…
And I feel at peace with that.
I know that the Lord is my firm foundation. That He is unchanging. Solid. Dependable.
A dear friend of mine talked about it this week, and they explained it like this:
There are moments when our friends, family, our children, let us down. They can be immature, selfish, delusional, willfully disobedient, purposefully hurtful, narcissistic, and cruel. A mature person looks at these wrongs done by others and—while it still hurts—they don’t take it personally or allow it to interfere with their inner peace and emotional stability.
It made me understand on a deeper level that, of course, God is the MOST mature being in the Universe. And just how much capacity he has beyond human comprehension to continue to love us through our sin and disobedience, our ignorance, and our malice.
The depth of God’s love for us both astounds me and overwhelms me.
I’m so so thankful that He loved us enough to weave a love story through time in order to reach us and bring us home to Him.