Every year, I make a New Years Resolution that I commit to working on all year. I try to pick things that need discipline in my life. I’ve been doing this since 2012. You may have seen my theory about New Years Resolutions a few years ago.
In 2012, I resolved to be a more patient person.
In 2013, I resolved to give from a heart of abundance. In other words, be more generous because I have been given much. I needed a lot of emotional support from friends in 2013, and so I resolved to be give to others, as others had given generously to me.
In 2014, I prayed that God would give me the strength to let go of inconsequential things.
In 2015, I resolved to wake up every day and live in gratitude.
In 2016, my resolution was two-fold: (1) Set boundaries and (2) Be more discerning.
In 2017, I resolved to tithe as a part of my budget. I wasn’t able to tithe in 2016, since that’s when I quit my job to work for myself again and ended up living off my savings and I earned less than I spent that year. In 2017, I committed to tithing from what I earned, and God blessed me with an amazing dream job where I get to both be my own boss and work with this amazing company called Pure Indian Foods, that I already loved and supported, and now I get to work closely with to build content—making videos and cooking and taking pictures for them, much like I was doing here for Revived Kitchen.
So what’s my resolution for 2018?
Well, before I get into that, I want to take a moment and praise my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ for answering my long-time prayer from 2016. It’s taken two years, but I finally feel capable of setting proper boundaries with people and being bold enough to speak out when needed.
Ya’ll don’t understand how much I prayed for this. And prayed and prayed and prayed. For my eyes to be open to when I needed to speak and say, “no” or “stop.” For my heart to discern the difference between a situation that was safe or unsafe. To be able to recognize red flags and moreover to know how to avoid situations containing red flags.
Do you know how horrible it is to be caught up in a toxic situation when you’re not even aware it’s toxic, and you end up hurt anyway? Step one was learning when things are toxic. Step 2 is enlightenment. LOL. And not feeling drawn to those types of toxic situations and people. YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN! Right?
Anyway, two years later, and I’ve reached Step 2. Praise the LORD!
I’ve often thought that I’m hardly a model Christian. My life has been full of mistakes and sinful decisions. I’ve often felt embarrassed to even call myself a Christian, because I haven’t felt a worthy representative of Christ. But I’m beginning to think that maybe I’m just fine, actually. ;)
In 2 Corinthians 12:9 (ESV), Paul tells us what the Lord said to him:
“But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
As I grow older, I’m thankful to understand more fully the grace that Christ offers us, and I finally understand that I’m loved and special and treasured. I didn’t always believe that. And I didn’t always feel comfortable diving deeper into God’s Word, either.
I guess my 2015 resolution was successful, too. ;)
Anyway, it’s been four years since I got divorced. I can’t believe it. Since then, I’ve changed a lot, and a lot of it has had to do with these resolutions every year. So I want to make this next year count.
This year was a year of financial recovery and learning to trust and be thankful for the opportunities offered to me in this chapter. However, working for myself again and trying to do lots of different contract work, plus my own projects and cooking was incredibly challenging. I’ve not gotten enough sleep this year, and I know that.
Hurricane Irma did a number on me, as well, and the stress from that event alone actually took me about three weeks of recovery.
I need to go to bed earlier and wake up earlier and have more discipline when it comes to managing my work and personal life.
Thus, my New Year’s Resolution for 2018 is to be more balanced.
Wish me luck! :)